In January of this year, I wrote a blog entitled, “Fifty by Fifty”, which was my declaration of my commitment to losing a much needed fifty pounds, as I moved closer to celebrating my fiftieth birthday.

I just celebrated that birthday and as I am on every day of my life, I celebrated that day in a state of gratefulness and bliss. Leading up to the day, I began to take an introspective look into the decade of my forties, and could see many accomplishments achieved, mistakes, made, but overall, life has been and is good. And I’m feeling really good about myself and life in general.

And, losing the weight has been a steady process. It not only involves losing physical weight, but it includes getting rid of anything that could have the possibility of weighing me down, mentally, physically or spiritually. I’ve reached a point and maintained my stance where I deal with the “adversities” in life in a different manner. Unnecessary drama and stress is quickly handled and dismissed and I’ve gotten a better handle on the compulsive overeating and the emotional over eating. I have longevity of life in my view and I intend to live life to its fullest on every level of living and being. I’m feeling good.

After I completed the Daniel Fast in December and January, I took my first weight in early February. I had lost 19 pounds. I celebrated this great fete with my team of Accountability Partners. We all were so happy. Then “life” happened. I had a major blow that I had to deal with and I was challenged greatly. I think, sometimes, that it was another opportunity for me to see how I would deal with the issue. It was tough, very emotional, and it was on a level of interaction that I’d never encountered before, and……I fell off the wagon. I gained four pounds! Now that may not seem like much to you, but to someone that has had the type of weight issues that I’ve had, it’s monumental, and especially because I’ve prepared, and set the components in place to be successful. Mainly what I’ve needed to bring to the table is myself, with a made up mind, and a healthier ME as the main component.

I contacted my Accountability Partners, and they each kicked in with advice, prayer, wise counsel, and reinforcement to help me on this journey. I allowed myself to be counseled spiritually by Rev. Kalund McKain, Deborah Pollard added with the empathic side of things, without allowing me to give up. Rev. Joyce Sykes, urged me to “get real” and see the reality of the issue at hand and to know that I could handle it, no matter what. Then came the intense attention from personal trainer, Desiree’ Page, “Ten times up the drive way and ten times down, equal one mile. You can do this and no you cannot wait to start on Monday. Stop putting it off. That’s part of the problem”. So up and down the drive way I walk, again grateful for the ability to move and the breath of life that I breath as I walk my way to better health.

This is all a part of the journey that is my life. It’s wonderful and I will meet my first goal of those fifty pounds and beyond because I need to lose more until I know that I am healthy. It’s not about looking a certain way, but it’s about being healthy and living life.

I entitled this blog “I’m Feelin’ Good”. You may recognize that title from the song that Jennifer Hudson sings for her commercials for the Weight Watchers program, (which was originally recorded by Jazz great Nina Simone in the 60’s). She looks wonderful, and sounds great too. My program does not include Weight Watchers. It’s the words of the song that resonate with me…

Birds flying high, you know how I feel
Sun in the sky, you know how I feel
Breeze drifting on by, you know how I feel
It’s a new dawn
It’s a new day
It’s a new life
For me
And I’m feeling good...

The song speaks about the things we may take for granted on a daily basis, the things that happen that we most times are not even aware of. Like the sun rising every day, fish in the sea, in their natural habitat doing what they do, the river coursing towards the sea, running free; it all just seemingly happens and we, in the midst of it recognize the new dawn, the new day, the new life, and we’re given another opportunity to feel good and to be free as the Universe does It’s thing, without any assistance from us. I’m free to take my place and do my part within the great Universal dynamic.

That’s where it is for me. Life is good. I’m laying aside every weight, not allowing anything to easily beset me. It’s a new dawn, a new day, a new phase of life for me and I’m feeling good!